Moving along

So peanut is a little more than half way done baking. I'm super excited by how fast this pregnancy is going, but I'm also trying to soak it all in at the same time. Does that make sense? I haven't really come to terms that this might be my last pregnancy, I'm blissfully ignorant to that fact. I cannot face that my baby making days will be over, so I'll just leave that page unturned for now. But, in saying that, I think to myself, what will we use as birth control after Lil'Peanut is born? Breastfeeding work very well after Lilian was born, I got my first cycle 13 months after Lili was born and got pregnant the second cycle I had after she was born which was 14 months after she was born. So maybe we can use breastfeeding for maybe the first 6 months and move on to something else, to be extra safe.

So since my particular OB has more patients than he can handle (in my opinion) I have to remind him about a lot things, like pretty much give him a run down of our previous appointment. Why do I stay with him, you say? Well, he is very knowledgeable, understanding and truly listens to your concerns and does what he can to ease them, even if it ridiculous. Anyways, back to my point, I had to remind my doctor that I never received an anatomy scan for peanut, that we found out her gender while scanning my uterine lining for bleeding and oops, there were Lil'Peanuts girly goods. So I have a anatomy scan next week. I'm exciting to see how big she is, she should be close to a pound and a half by next week. I know she is tall or long, whatever. I also know she is smack up against my cervix....not cool. She has nightly battles with my bladder, I'm surprised I haven't peed blood yet, with the Judo chops she gives my bladder.

Lilian on the other hand, is doing awesome, she seriously surprises me everyday with something new that knows and is keeping under wraps. She knows the shape star. And she points to everything that is a star and says: "Stars, STARS!!". She knows the word milk too, well more like mill, but she gets her point across. She is a very bright little girl that loves to observe and learn on her own.
While she is asleep, I find it hard not to stare at her, I just cannot help but stare. She is so adorable and peaceful. Then I get that feeling that I'm sure all mothers of more than one kid has got. The "I feel a little bad about springing a sibling on my only child right now." I wish there was a way to explain it to her, but I know she cannot grasp it at the moment. I let her know there is a baby in my belly, she knows the word baby, but I can tell she gets super confused when I say baby and point to my belly. I love the time we spend together, the pointless cuddles, the afternoon naps, the solo trips to the park or store. No more. She'll have to learn to share "Mama." I think/hope she'll do ok. ((sigh)) We shall see, in what...17 weeks?