I cannot sleep, I know I should, but it's not happening. Why? Because I am frozen, I am stuck, just watching you sleep. I am with you all day everyday, but I still can't help but stare at you as you lay in your litltle bed. You look perfect in everyway. I know all moms say that, but you are. There not one thing I'd even begin to think should be different about you.

I have always heard that the love a parent has for a child is unlike any other. It's something you will hear of your life, but your heart won't truly understand those words until you become a mother. As I watch you breathe, I think to myself how I didn't think it was possible to posses a love this vast, this large and deep and true. Sometimes it's honestly scary to love someone this much. To know that my heart no longer belongs to me, it's completely consumed with your little voice, your little hands your little face. You've stolen my heart and it didn't have a chance. It was yours the second I knew I had you in my tummy. And now I have your sister on the way and I know she'll steal my heart too, but I just don't understand how one person is able to love two little girls so much. I know it will happen, it's just crazy how much a person is unaware of until the actual experience comes along. Lilian I love you more than you will understand for a while, you are my life and my heart and of course my little baby girl.

Love forever and ever,
Mom