Ten things.....

about me not a lot people know.

1. I used to write poetry, all the time, everyday. I have a library of journals filled with my poetry. I don't ever go back and read them though......too depressing. I stopped writing of course.
2. I love listening to sad songs or angry songs. I don't know why, I just do. I love the overwhelming feeling of emotions that a song has, a good song that is. I personally think that music is one of the most incredible ways humans express feelings, emotions and stories, it's amazing.
3. I have three tattoos. If it was up to me, I'd be completely covered in them, love'em. My husband refuses to let me get more. Now "let me" isn't the correct term, because he would never forbid me to do something, I guess we just don't see 'eye to eye' on this situation, so I just leave it alone. But if we ever divorce....sleeve tattoos HERE I COME! hah. I kid.
4. If I'm home, I'm naked, or close to it. I hate wearing clothes. This becomes a problem when we have guest stay over or we go and stay at a family's house, I feel so uncomfortable sleeping dressed, it's unnatural. I'm never aware of open windows either, I can't tell you home many times I've been walking around in my birthday suit and freeze in front of a window, realizing the neighborhood has a perfect shot of my goods. Oops. Oh well. They shouldn't be looking in my windows!
   
5. I listen to Country music. Yup. That's right, I admit it. My husband says it's not real country, but poppy country. Whatever. I like it, it has emotion, let be happy, loved, sad and the female and male vocals are actually good. So I'm not ashamed, I just don't always blare it.
6. I ALWAYS have a hair elastic on my right wrist....always. Even if my hair is already up in a ponytail, I still have a elastic on my wrist. It's a OCD thing I guess. I never leave the house without one, I will seriously turn around and go back in the house if I notice one is not on my wrist. I have very long hair (two inches above my butt) and I live in Florida, it's hot all the damn time, so let me put it like this for you: Long hair+ Florida= elastic.
7. Back to the OCD thing. One other thing that I have to have a certain way is my bed sheets. They have to bed just right before I go to bed every night. The comforter has to be aligned correctly, the sheet has to be tight, the pillows have to be fluffed and in the right place. My husband thinks I'm nuts...it's a comfort thing.
   
8. I have seperation aniexty. I have such a hard time leaving my daughter and going out. It's true. When I leave her, I'm ok for an hour, but after that I start getting nervous. Did I pump enough milk for her? Is she wondering why I left? Is she sleeping ok? It goes on and on and on....I need to deal with it seriously. Just the idea of leaving her for a weekend when she gets a little older give me a panic attack. Wow. I hope I am not a smothering mom when she gets older....ugh.
9. I used to sing....and pretty damn good if I do say so myself. I was in professional chorus for almost 10 years. I was considered an Alto. For those who don't know, Alto is the one tone deeper than the lightest voice tone. It goes Soprano, Alto, Bass and Tenor. I started smoking cigarettes and stopped singing, it all went down hill from there. I dont' smoke anymore.
   
10. I love being a mother. Well I love my little Lilian. I am terrified to have another baby though. I am terrified to go through the newborn stage and everything. I worry so much with Lilian, about everything. I worry when she gets sick, if she'll get sick, etc. I know it's boarderline a mental condition I guess you can say, but I don't know if I could ever not worry as much as I do.
    

Well there you have it. If I left anything out that you want to know.....let me know! Hope I'm not insanely boring for you all.