Mixed bag

Alright so I promised a juicy post. This is my attempt. Sorry ahead of time if it sucks.

I'll ask a couple of hypothetical questions for you guys.
We all have at least one close girl friend right? The one that we knew for a long time, we always told them our secrets and troubles. Even if you didn't keep in touch, you still talked to them like you never missed a day. Well say you two were lucky enough to get pregnant and have your children close together. How awesome. Say months went by and you two were on the phone constantly. "Well my baby just did this, what should I do?" "What did you do?". You were always exchanging advice, asking questions....the typical first time mom thing. The novelty of being a first time mom eventually wears off and you aren't talking as much again, but of course you still keep up with her. And in the act of keeping up with each other you start to notice her mother skills are slacking....bad. You notice she's never spending time with her baby, instead, the baby is spending 85% of it's time at the baby sitters instead of with your friend....because you know....your friend likes to party. Every time you are at your friends house, you notice a new guy coming out of her bedroom, you also notice her baby's diaper is usually falling off because it's so full. You also pick up on that the baby usually always smells like spit up. You ask when the last time the baby had a bath, and the response is " I don't know....3 days?".
By this time the baby is 18 months and still mainly crawling and not really talking besides saying the usual "Dada" and "Mama".
What would you do?
Now remember, this is your best friend. Would you bring it up to her that she's not being a good mother? Would you report her for inspection? Would you bring it up to her family? Would you leave it alone hoping it would work itself out?



If someone approached your closest friend or significant other and asked them what your most annoying quality was, what do you think their answer would be?

Mine? My husband would probably say I look for instant action. For example, if I come up with a good idea, I want it completed instantly....that very second. A couple of years ago, after one of our dogs had to go to a rescue, a couple of months later my husband said, " Maybe it's time we look for a playmate for our other dog, now that Cali is gone." I got a dog that afternoon. So what's yours?

Whew!

So my hips are hurting. I am so glad I got to rest and not run today, because I'm in pain.

Thanks for all the comments on my last post, you gals are awesome. I have nothing really exciting to post about, mainly just wanted to thank you girls for your comments. I just got Lili down for the night, my sweet man of a husband is coming back soon from the store with some beers for me, and we are going to relax and spend some time together. I feel relaxed just typing that. HAH. I promise I will post something juicy tomorrow, I have some topics I would like to discuss, hehehe. Toodles!

A Two-fer!

So Jess nominated me for this award....how awesome.




I already did the one word quiz....but in honor of this award I'll do it again. Then I'll make my real post!


Award & 1-word quiz!
Here are the rules:
1. You can only use one word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers!
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have fun!

The Fun Part
1. Where is your cell phone? Charging
2. Your hair? Nest
3. Your mother? Nuturing
4. Your father? Stubborn
5. Your favorite food? Sushi
6. Your dream last night? forgot
7. Your favorite drink? tea
8. Your dream/goal? School
9. What room are you in? Computer
10. Your hobby? Running
11. Your fear? loss
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Happy
13. Where were you last night? Running
14. Something that you aren’t? Awake
15. Muffins? Yes?
16. Wish list item? Shoes
17. Where did you grow up? Beach
18. Last thing you did? Diaper
19. What are you wearing? P.J's
20. Your TV? On
21. Your pets? Outside
22. Friends? love
23. Your life? Perfect
24. Your mood? Tired (does that count?)
25. Missing someone? yes
26. Vehicle?Parked
27. Something you’re not wearing? Make up
28. Your favorite store? Gap
29. Your favorite color? Blue/Brown
30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier
31. Last time you cried? Awhile
32. Your best friend? Jace
33. One place that I go to over and over? Target
34. One person who emails me regularly? Mom
35. Favorite place to eat? Chili's



I nominate:

Misty
Lauren
Liz
Christina
Danny

If you already received this award.....my bad.

On to the second part of my post. My brother and sister-in-law have inspired Jace and I to start running. They've been running for a little bit now and are planning on participating in a marathon this up coming month. So Last night started Jace and I's training. Oh and of course Lili....but she feel asleep during the training. We ran two miles and some change last night, it was awesome. My back is killing me along with my hips, but it was well worth it. Tonight is my 15 minute run and then tomorrow is my day off. I think this will be a good way to take off the last three pounds of baby weight. Anyone else still have baby weight? How much weight did you gain during your pregnancy? How much did you lose or not lose? (You don't have to answer if you don't wanna, just being nosey.) I gained a total of 40lbs when pregnant and lost 30lbs right off the bat. It took about three months post-partem to lose 7 more pounds, now I only have three more to go, it's crazy how much of a difference three pounds makes.

((sigh))

Just for fun

These questions were part of an award....that I didn't received. It looked like fun, so I wanna do it. Award schward. The instructions say to answer the questions with only one word. So here it goes.


1. Where is your cell phone? Pocket
2. Your hair? Natural
3. your mother? Awesome
4. Your father? Strong
5. Your favorite food? Seafood
6. Your dream last night? Scary
7. Your favorite drink? Tea
8. Your dream/goal? School
9. What room are you in? Small
10. Your hobby? Running
11. Your fear? Pain
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Independent
13. Where were you last night? Parents
14. Something that you aren't? Wuss
15. Muffins? Drool
16. Wish list item?Dress
17. Where did you grow up? South
18. Last thing you did? Pump
19. What are you wearing? Jeans
20. Your TV? Dora
21. Your pets? Doberman
22. Friends? Great
23. Your life? Awesome
24. Your mood? Captivated
25. Missing someone? No
26. Vehicle? Reliable
27. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? Brown
30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier
31. Last time you cried? awhile
32. Your best friend? Jace
33. One place that I go to over and over? oldnavy.
34. One person who emails me regularly? Hope
35. Favorite place to eat? Chili's

Welcome to Toddler-hood

Dear Larissa, Mother of Lilian,
Today we welcome you to toddler hood, which will eventually consist of toy aisle tantrums which may include, but are not limited to: snot excreting from the nose, screams that can be heard all the way to the cash register and embarrassment only a mother can anticipate.
Toddler hood will also consist of: Seeing your little "baby" grow up right before your eyes. Get the feeling like your "little stinker" is growing up too fast and learning too quickly. Getting teary eyed when your little one catches your eye across the room just to smile at you. You realizing that you are no longer the mother of an infant or baby. That the next big step is elementary school. You realizing that those "newborn" days that you were so stressed out about and sleep deprived, are days you actually miss and when you look back at them, you actually exclaim "awww" out loud.

Today at this exact time, 7:20am I was in the hospital, 4cm dialated and contracting every 8 minutes, in less then six hours, I would be meeting my Lilian. She was place on my chest the second I gave birth to her. I remember feeling her little tush and crying my eyes out, looking up at my husband and not even recognizing him, because he was full of tears with a red face. He leaned over and kissed both Lilian and I, whispering " I love you guys."
I remember sleeping one hour that night. I wasn't even tired. I just stared at her while she slept next to hospital bed. She was so content. I was so terrified. I was responsible for this little person. Holy. Crap.
I followed her everywhere, every time the nurses came in and asked if they can take her to the nursery to check her stats, I followed right behind. I remember not wanting to go come from the hospital, I remember when the nurse pushed me through the hospital to my car, I was so proud holding my Lilian, I swear my face was as bright as a 60 watt bulb. I remember being terrified of the ride home, but she just slept right through it. When we got home, I slept on the couch, purposely uncomfortable so when she needed to be fed, I'd be awake and ready to go. I remember my husband trying to help me relax, I remember crying on his shoulder for no reason and being terrified for no reason. I remember thinking that it'll take forever for her to turn one year old. Now that I look back on everything, I wish I had those days back, I would try and make them last forever.
Now I have a wonderful, silly, excited, glowing, smart happy toddler. I love how passionate she is about everything. I love how smart she is, I love how brave she is. I love how silly she is, I love it how when she knows that she is doing something that makes you laugh, she'll do it longer or more. I love cuddling with her in bed and feeling her little warm feet drape over my legs. I love waking up and seeing her sleeping face, she looks so happy and comfortable. I love seeing her get excited about something, she points and opens her mouth really wide and gasps, like to say "No way!!!".
I can't wait for her to grow up but another part of me wants her to stay a baby forever.

Picture withdrawl!

My camera is broken and I haven't been able to take any pictures of my adorable baby....ahem....sorry, I mean toddler.
She has been getting better at walking. She can totally do it, but she's too scared to walk on her own. I'll hold her hands, she'll get moving, I will slowly let go, and she'll walk a couple of steps, and then you can see that she realizes no one is holding on to her, and she'll fall on her diaper. Wow that was a run on sentence.
I'm also trying to get her to eat more table food. She ate mac'n cheese yesterday for lunch and the day before she ate chicken for lunch. I'm going to be so embarrassed when her doctor asks what she is eating and I am going to have to say that she is still eating a lot of baby food. I try to give her table food, but she won't eat enough to be considered a healthy meal, so I have to supplement with baby food. I know it's probably enableing her, but what else should I do? This is my first time, so I guess it's trial and error. I know this sounds a little dramatic, but I feel like I messed up. I mean she's gonna be one year old tomorrow and she's still on baby food? What the hell. I feel like the parent of that five year old you see still in a stroller and sucking on a pacifier, does that make sense? She's still nursing too, but that doesn't bother me. I'll let her nurse until she's ready to stop. I mean I am not going to nurse until she's going into elementry school, but I'm not stopping at one either, I mean she's not stopping at one.
((sigh)) There are a lot of things that I did with Lilian that I think I'll do differently with our next child. Sometimes when I sit and think about it, it feels like I did a lot of things wrong. I know it's a mom thing to feel, and I know I tried my best, but it's hard to not doubt yourself, ya know? Anyways....let's talk about my baby factory. So remember back when I posted I got AF? Well I didn't. I like spotted for two days, and that was it. And now it's happening again, what is up with that? It's really annoying. I'm not pregnant either. So that's not it. My body hates me. I hate my body, it goes hand in hand.

Tomorrow is Lilian's wellness check up, I'll update you tomorrow.

I got my tetanus vaccine yesterday....my arm is useless. It doesn't hurt really, it just feels like my arm weighs 20lbs, just to lift it. Anyways, I'm exhausted, I don't know why, but I really don't feel like posting anything. I'll come back with something interesting. I promise.