A Two-fer!

So Jess nominated me for this award....how awesome.




I already did the one word quiz....but in honor of this award I'll do it again. Then I'll make my real post!


Award & 1-word quiz!
Here are the rules:
1. You can only use one word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers!
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have fun!

The Fun Part
1. Where is your cell phone? Charging
2. Your hair? Nest
3. Your mother? Nuturing
4. Your father? Stubborn
5. Your favorite food? Sushi
6. Your dream last night? forgot
7. Your favorite drink? tea
8. Your dream/goal? School
9. What room are you in? Computer
10. Your hobby? Running
11. Your fear? loss
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Happy
13. Where were you last night? Running
14. Something that you aren’t? Awake
15. Muffins? Yes?
16. Wish list item? Shoes
17. Where did you grow up? Beach
18. Last thing you did? Diaper
19. What are you wearing? P.J's
20. Your TV? On
21. Your pets? Outside
22. Friends? love
23. Your life? Perfect
24. Your mood? Tired (does that count?)
25. Missing someone? yes
26. Vehicle?Parked
27. Something you’re not wearing? Make up
28. Your favorite store? Gap
29. Your favorite color? Blue/Brown
30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier
31. Last time you cried? Awhile
32. Your best friend? Jace
33. One place that I go to over and over? Target
34. One person who emails me regularly? Mom
35. Favorite place to eat? Chili's



I nominate:

Misty
Lauren
Liz
Christina
Danny

If you already received this award.....my bad.

On to the second part of my post. My brother and sister-in-law have inspired Jace and I to start running. They've been running for a little bit now and are planning on participating in a marathon this up coming month. So Last night started Jace and I's training. Oh and of course Lili....but she feel asleep during the training. We ran two miles and some change last night, it was awesome. My back is killing me along with my hips, but it was well worth it. Tonight is my 15 minute run and then tomorrow is my day off. I think this will be a good way to take off the last three pounds of baby weight. Anyone else still have baby weight? How much weight did you gain during your pregnancy? How much did you lose or not lose? (You don't have to answer if you don't wanna, just being nosey.) I gained a total of 40lbs when pregnant and lost 30lbs right off the bat. It took about three months post-partem to lose 7 more pounds, now I only have three more to go, it's crazy how much of a difference three pounds makes.

((sigh))

Just for fun

These questions were part of an award....that I didn't received. It looked like fun, so I wanna do it. Award schward. The instructions say to answer the questions with only one word. So here it goes.


1. Where is your cell phone? Pocket
2. Your hair? Natural
3. your mother? Awesome
4. Your father? Strong
5. Your favorite food? Seafood
6. Your dream last night? Scary
7. Your favorite drink? Tea
8. Your dream/goal? School
9. What room are you in? Small
10. Your hobby? Running
11. Your fear? Pain
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Independent
13. Where were you last night? Parents
14. Something that you aren't? Wuss
15. Muffins? Drool
16. Wish list item?Dress
17. Where did you grow up? South
18. Last thing you did? Pump
19. What are you wearing? Jeans
20. Your TV? Dora
21. Your pets? Doberman
22. Friends? Great
23. Your life? Awesome
24. Your mood? Captivated
25. Missing someone? No
26. Vehicle? Reliable
27. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? Brown
30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier
31. Last time you cried? awhile
32. Your best friend? Jace
33. One place that I go to over and over? oldnavy.
34. One person who emails me regularly? Hope
35. Favorite place to eat? Chili's

Welcome to Toddler-hood

Dear Larissa, Mother of Lilian,
Today we welcome you to toddler hood, which will eventually consist of toy aisle tantrums which may include, but are not limited to: snot excreting from the nose, screams that can be heard all the way to the cash register and embarrassment only a mother can anticipate.
Toddler hood will also consist of: Seeing your little "baby" grow up right before your eyes. Get the feeling like your "little stinker" is growing up too fast and learning too quickly. Getting teary eyed when your little one catches your eye across the room just to smile at you. You realizing that you are no longer the mother of an infant or baby. That the next big step is elementary school. You realizing that those "newborn" days that you were so stressed out about and sleep deprived, are days you actually miss and when you look back at them, you actually exclaim "awww" out loud.

Today at this exact time, 7:20am I was in the hospital, 4cm dialated and contracting every 8 minutes, in less then six hours, I would be meeting my Lilian. She was place on my chest the second I gave birth to her. I remember feeling her little tush and crying my eyes out, looking up at my husband and not even recognizing him, because he was full of tears with a red face. He leaned over and kissed both Lilian and I, whispering " I love you guys."
I remember sleeping one hour that night. I wasn't even tired. I just stared at her while she slept next to hospital bed. She was so content. I was so terrified. I was responsible for this little person. Holy. Crap.
I followed her everywhere, every time the nurses came in and asked if they can take her to the nursery to check her stats, I followed right behind. I remember not wanting to go come from the hospital, I remember when the nurse pushed me through the hospital to my car, I was so proud holding my Lilian, I swear my face was as bright as a 60 watt bulb. I remember being terrified of the ride home, but she just slept right through it. When we got home, I slept on the couch, purposely uncomfortable so when she needed to be fed, I'd be awake and ready to go. I remember my husband trying to help me relax, I remember crying on his shoulder for no reason and being terrified for no reason. I remember thinking that it'll take forever for her to turn one year old. Now that I look back on everything, I wish I had those days back, I would try and make them last forever.
Now I have a wonderful, silly, excited, glowing, smart happy toddler. I love how passionate she is about everything. I love how smart she is, I love how brave she is. I love how silly she is, I love it how when she knows that she is doing something that makes you laugh, she'll do it longer or more. I love cuddling with her in bed and feeling her little warm feet drape over my legs. I love waking up and seeing her sleeping face, she looks so happy and comfortable. I love seeing her get excited about something, she points and opens her mouth really wide and gasps, like to say "No way!!!".
I can't wait for her to grow up but another part of me wants her to stay a baby forever.

Picture withdrawl!

My camera is broken and I haven't been able to take any pictures of my adorable baby....ahem....sorry, I mean toddler.
She has been getting better at walking. She can totally do it, but she's too scared to walk on her own. I'll hold her hands, she'll get moving, I will slowly let go, and she'll walk a couple of steps, and then you can see that she realizes no one is holding on to her, and she'll fall on her diaper. Wow that was a run on sentence.
I'm also trying to get her to eat more table food. She ate mac'n cheese yesterday for lunch and the day before she ate chicken for lunch. I'm going to be so embarrassed when her doctor asks what she is eating and I am going to have to say that she is still eating a lot of baby food. I try to give her table food, but she won't eat enough to be considered a healthy meal, so I have to supplement with baby food. I know it's probably enableing her, but what else should I do? This is my first time, so I guess it's trial and error. I know this sounds a little dramatic, but I feel like I messed up. I mean she's gonna be one year old tomorrow and she's still on baby food? What the hell. I feel like the parent of that five year old you see still in a stroller and sucking on a pacifier, does that make sense? She's still nursing too, but that doesn't bother me. I'll let her nurse until she's ready to stop. I mean I am not going to nurse until she's going into elementry school, but I'm not stopping at one either, I mean she's not stopping at one.
((sigh)) There are a lot of things that I did with Lilian that I think I'll do differently with our next child. Sometimes when I sit and think about it, it feels like I did a lot of things wrong. I know it's a mom thing to feel, and I know I tried my best, but it's hard to not doubt yourself, ya know? Anyways....let's talk about my baby factory. So remember back when I posted I got AF? Well I didn't. I like spotted for two days, and that was it. And now it's happening again, what is up with that? It's really annoying. I'm not pregnant either. So that's not it. My body hates me. I hate my body, it goes hand in hand.

Tomorrow is Lilian's wellness check up, I'll update you tomorrow.

I got my tetanus vaccine yesterday....my arm is useless. It doesn't hurt really, it just feels like my arm weighs 20lbs, just to lift it. Anyways, I'm exhausted, I don't know why, but I really don't feel like posting anything. I'll come back with something interesting. I promise.

Yesterday was so much fun! We (Lilian and me) didn't do anything out of the ordinary. Just hung out at my parents house until the afternoon, went home to meet Jace, and then we (Jace, Lilian and me) went out to eat. Lilian loooooooooooooves fries....I think that's bad. But every time I would have a fry in my hand she would grab my hand and bring it to her mouth. I also gave her a couple of bites of my chicken sandwich...she loved it. After dinner, we went home and played on the floor with all of her toys for an hour then it was time to start the bed time routine. She ate dinner ( a really good dinner) and took a bath. I brushed her teeth, put lotion on her and brushed her hair along with cleaning out her ears and nose (she likes to store food in her nose) and proceeded to nurse her to sleep like I usually do. She didn't fall asleep though. I looke down and I see two little eyes staring back at me....then a smile. So back to the living room floor covered in toys we went.

I ended up getting a phone call from my mom. My parents and brother with his wife were at a Bar/restaurant called Br.ew Ga.rd.en. Lili wasn't tired, I wasn't tired, so we went. There was a live band playing, Lili started dancing and laughing, it was a hiliarious show. We got home about an hour later and off to bed we went.

So my Saturday was nice...my Friday? Not so much. I had to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to get Lili to her appointment to get a flu shot. I had to get a flu shot and then I stepped on a rusty roof nail. Now I italilsized rusty because it wasn't questionably rusty, or here or there rusty.....the whole dange thing was unbelievably rusty. I was taking out the garbage in my husband's flip flops... and suddenly I felt this horrible dull pain in my foot, I lift my foot up and notice a nail sticking through the sandal and into my foot. I had to pull it out. That sucked. Luckily it didn't go too far in, not bad at all. It still hurt really bad though. I called three different places, all said I have to go get a tetanus shot....((sigh)). So have I gone yet? Nope. Why? Because I'm lazy, and I feel like I'm wasting time. Sounds ridiculous right? I know. I am going to my health department tomorrow to get one...I swear. I have to get a shot within three days of the incident according to poision control. So Monday is the third day...I'll let you know of my jaw starts locking up before that.

Stinker cannot breathe

Lili is sick. Poor thing couldn't breathe last night, so it was a hell of a night. She would wake up crying almost every 45 minutes it felt like. I got no sleep.
I took some pain reliever P.M's last night so I could fall asleep at a decent time ( I have a hard time falling asleep). Yeah. Those suckers didn't work at all. Two hours post pills, I'm wide awake watching t.v waiting for them to at least make me drowsy. Nothing. Anyways, I took them because like I said I needed to get to bed because this morning, I had to be at Lili's pediatrician at 8:45 am for her flu shot; he is about 30 minutes away. So I knew I'd be tired. Well it didn't matter what time I got to bed, I was up every hour with Lili anyways.
She did well with her vaccine. She didn't even know she got a shot. Well stinker is up from her nap.

((Sigh))
Alright, I'm back. We went out to lunch. Is it bad that I took out my congested baby? I figure she's going to be congested no matter where she is, home or out.
I just got her down for another nap, her last one was a sorry excuse for a nap. Usually to get her down for a nap I hold her facing me and rock her. This time while I was rocking her, I guess she wasn't tired and thought it was hilarious to make motor boat noises in my cleavage.....I kid you not. I am wearing a low cut shirt so she was eye level with the 'girls'. I couldn't help but laugh when she giggled, but that just egged her on. That's all the news for now, I'm going to get my flu shot in a couple of hours...I'm a wimp. I gave natural birth, I have nine piercings and three tattoo's, but I'm nervous about getting a vaccine....lame.